YOU’RE IT FOR ME

You’re it for me. When something happens in my life, the first thing that I want to do is pick up the phone and tell you. It doesn’t even matter what that thing is. I will never be able to repay you for the countless hours you have spent listening to me complain and vent,…

ALL OVER AGAIN

Has that ever happened to you?
 Have you ever let someone hurt you because you were afraid they would leave you? One day he loved me and the next he didn’t. Strange isn’t it? How fast someone’s feelings can change and then there’s nothing you can do but accept it. You have to sit and…

A GOOD FEW CHAPTERS

There was fighting, ignorance, stubbornness, cancellations, toxicity, emotional torture, and let’s not forget the constant competition of who cared less. We just didn’t work and I know that killed him just as much as it hurt me but lord knows he was a hell of a lot better at hiding that than I was. We…

AUTUMN

He is Autumn. He isn’t like the other boys, he’s incredibly different from everyone you’ll ever know. He does this thing where he’ll tuck your hair behind your ear while looking straight into your eyes and I swear it’s like you can almost feel him touching your soul. And his hands feel so warm against…

A CONVERSATION I IMAGINED #5

“Why’d you do it?” She said in a small, timid voice almost as if she was afraid of his response.“I don’t know,” he shrugged, “I don’t know why I do anything anymore,” “Right,” she sneered, “I handed my heart to you and it was torn to pieces and you can’t even give me a stupid…

A CONVERSATION I IMAGINED #4

“Why did you leave her?” She asked as he twirled his finger around her hair.  “What?” He replied,  “You know, your first love. Why did you leave it?”  His fingers slowly stopped twirling around the lose curl and he paused. 
“I don’t know, I just kind of.. Left. You see, we lived in different countries…

A CONVERSATION I IMAGINED #3

“I hate you,” she said venomously.  He laughed. “No you don’t.”  “I do. I think I really do. I don’t mean I hate the way you laugh a bit too loud or hate the way your handwriting changes everyday. I don’t mean I hate how you only wear black or hate how your voice changes…

SOMETIMES, YOU DID TOO

I pretend that it was never good, when people ask why we ended I tell them we were just young and I was blind, that we fought more than we loved and that the entire relationship was an exhausting experience that I’m glad to be out of. But the truth is I’ve never seen another…

BEAUTIFUL TRAGEDY

Sometimes you’ll love someone so much that it doesn’t matter what happens or how they treat you… You’re going to stay and you’re going to be so goddamn in love with them that you’ll convince yourself that their toxicity is healthy for you and you’ll make them the centre of your universe. You’ll swear to…

A CONVERSATION I IMAGINED #2

“I loved her,” he said, “I think a part of me always will love her. She made me feel alive and after years on this planet I finally felt like someone understood me, I don’t believe in soul mates much but I do believe that I was meant to meet her. But months passed and…

A CONVERSATION I IMAGINED #1

“You loved her?” She questioned him, He nodded,  “So why did you guys end? Why did you leave her?”  “Because,” he paused. 
“I don’t know. I wasn’t good for her, I hurt her, you know? I hurt her all the time and sometimes, sometimes.. I meant to and I hated myself for it but I couldn’t…

I FELT YOU LEAVING

I felt you leaving before you said anything. i felt you forgetting my voice and how my laugh would warm your heart. the feeling of my hands tracing the parts of your body you never really liked. the excitement on your face of when my toes were shown and when you get to have me…